Friday, 29 March 2013

What does the cat purr in your ear?


Every House Has Inexplicable Noises.

Hating Ones.

 

 

It’s a silhouette in the doorway,

Someone has come to see you,

Someone is paying a visit,

That has been paid in kind,

It’s kind of you to stay at homeless home,

Leaving open the front wound,

Silence and sloth are big virtues,

They are my sacred rights,

If it were an inspector,

He would interrogate you,

‘The moment she realized,

All that happened was only a game,

Where were you last night?’

Your alibi would be confusing,

It would be accurate mimicking you,

‘Where was I?

Between the legs of night,

I couldn’t decide which road to choose,

I recommend them both,

As you know I’m always boozing,

My choice was satisfying,

Have I spared the life of your cat?’

Empty bottles are piled in the corner,

Witnessing they would lie,

Incriminating ‘not guilty’,

It is your silent verdict,

I will be your alibi,

I’m your ally somehow,

Don’t pray for me but…

If it were a paparazzi,

He would ask you a stupid question,

If Cher is still alive,

I look like my new decoration,

Not like your torn jeans,

A ghosting hand wanders,

Let’s plan a trip together,

Gliding across black satin frills,

I’m an ideal woman,

For any man on Earth,

I am a poet,

An occupant,

A colonizer,

Living on cloud nine,

To the right of the dying world,

To the left of the unexplored,

Your place is noisy and brooding,

Raising up in the hot sky,

When you get tired of smiling,

Start walking on tiptoes,

Don’t slam the front door,

At the first opportunity run,

I will save you the best seat,

Minding only your motion sickness,

Since when you prefer an aisle seat?

You are an invincible flirt,

But for you I can be a coquette,

Before you are deadly bored,

Devouring someone else,

Seeking your next victim,

I’ll give you a quick tour,

Under the sprinkles of meteorites,

Since the cloud became white,

Local lovers have kept a tryst,

Being unfaithful to each other,

Exclusively in daylight,

Being faithful to one another,

In the hours of blind night.

 

 

Sunday, 24 March 2013

What does the cat purr in your ear?


Life addiction is my immortality. Death doesn’t exist for me. Everything death related I write is valid only in my imagination.

 

 Lighthearted Necrology

 

It is dark, cold and moist,

It is confided space,

It doesn’t bother me now,

Because you have killed me this night,

It wasn’t intent,

 I  know,

The dawn will be mourning its loss,

You will return your  sweet home,

Is it your harbor?

Your castle?

Your lair?

It's  your  insanity case,

In the morning you won’t remember,

What happened to you last night,

Last  night you bankrupted a little,

But you are still rich and grand,

Today I am the biggest spender,

I’ve  run out of my god’s trust fund,

You will wake up one empty morning,

Because you still open your eyes,

You’ll be poorer just a little,

I will be threadbare and dumpy,

Lying in my dim nest,

Smearing  your glass walls,

With the lyrics of one death,

You won’t be able  to solve,

The equation of pointless death,

I’ll solve the equation of killing,

Persuading your  bloodthirsty brains,

Any can kill anybody,

Depending on circumstances,

Situations can take lives,

Anyone has the lightless,

Anyone has something black,

One day it defeats all colors,

A variable is your lyrics,

Under ‘I am’ the circumstance,

A constant is one,

It’s my death,

You’ve killed  in a big hurry,

You didn’t ask my last will,

Death has never been my worry,

Death is your business but mine,

I want my beloved undertaker,

To know my burial plot,

I don’t want to see him grieving,

I don’t want to see him crying,

Don't pour your bitter tears,

Tears are salty water,

Or orchids will rot in the swamp,

Don’t stab my shade with remorse,

Making a fuss of your frights,

I don’t want my beloved undertaker,

Disturbing  the peace  of his mind,

I am loved-up,

I am snuggling,

Pressing my breath against your glove,

Your gloves are made of red velvet,

No, I am not rising,

However I will rise,

Like the last sun of your life.

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

Incest. Another Love One Hundred Thirty Nine.

Incest.

 

 

 Another Love One Hundred Thirty Nine.

 

 

Epilogue

 

 

Is the Capricorn tame after all? “Let’s end long- winded speech and monologues. It’s not obituary yet during grave service. Where is the body? It is the third dead body on your list”. “In my criminal record it’s your comment”. “In your criminal record it’s your story”.” So far the dead has been alleged until you prove I’m wrong”.”Do you insist on keeping silence?” “My silence is eclectic one”.” If you insist on not confessing all your crimes, your silence is to  be electric. I want the third dead body.” “ I did kill no body. I won’t confess my sins. Two is the number that I favor. Can you execute me three times?”




It is a tale,

Telling gallant adventures of a snail,

It used to cry a lot,

While wandering around,

It asked one constellation whys,

When answers were so unimportant,

It was inspired by a muse,

In muses circle she’s well-known,

She has no name and no calling,

A muse is not a human being,

She is chaotic, wrong and distant,

Her plan of actions is a mess,

She isn’t held responsible for killings,

Bestowing a natural disaster,

She wants you being the best,

Muses don’t tell the truth,

Muses don’t lie,

Muses don’t make a deal,

Muses inspire,

Muses don’t know arithmetics,

She is a bomb,

When you need to explode,

She is a match,

When you light fire,

You walked through night,

You followed insomnia,

It led you,

The moon yolk hang as usual overhead,

The stars lost their brightness,

She was the  brightest star,

That night you couldn’t stay in dusty stardom,

She gave an ultimatum  ‘no less’,

Like kids and cats,

She must belong with someone,

Muses should never be on loose,

That night you craved for love,

She craved for you to love her,

Never unleash a muse,

In sunshine muses sleep,

Music and lyrics will be born in darkness,

Muses create a genius out of broken dreams,

Composing the doom of our existence,

Muse is a she,

But she is not a woman,

And she is not a wom.


Basking in morning light,

A sock becomes alive,

Before it dies in packing chaos,

An anorexic creature,

Named after Life,

It comes to life,

It grabs a pen,

To document my hasty rain,

It will be written down,

Grossly illiterate,

It enterprises,

Inking the bottom of the page,

I overlooked its scribbles,

They mention precious stones and the end,

‘The most precious things are those,

That can’t be lost in any terrible shipwreck,

The end is here,

It’s the place,

Where the past doesn’t exist to own us,

And yesterday is dust’.



P.S. Any lost and found resemblance to unreal persons, faces behind splashes of color, characters under the particular circumstances is absolutely incidentally coincidental. It was made up by life out of thin air.  



Thursday, 14 March 2013

Incest. Another Love One Hundred Thirty Seven.

Incest.

 

 

 

Another Love One Hundred Thirty Seven.

 


Life’s bedside story to lullaby the Capricorn.”The two of them are witty. They are carnivorous with grazing teeth. They give away free venom. They give and take the most awesome smiles. She lives to feel another love. He lives shape shifting time. At 3 a.m. he is another. Because flirting is not romancing.   Falling in love is not illegal”. “ At least I don’t deal romantic crack. It’s an illegal sin. For this you can be locked in someone’s heart forever”. “We both have the same opinion. For this you can be loved for life”.

 

 

 

 

“I wasn’t free,

 

Until I put an end to the anemic  white,

 

I had the right to kill my story,

 

To stab it with a fat full stop,

 

I didn’t want to dwell on something,

 

That had been taken a priori,

 

I reached the place when nobody falls,

 

Because the earthly love was made from clay,

 

It’s sculptured to be mortal,

 

I asked when there was nothing to say,

 

I gave away my pain,

 

I didn’t look for pity or for sorry,

 

‘Tell me is it reality or fiction?

 

Is it the truth?

 

Is it a lie?

 

We’re only two addresses,

 

We start with Life,

 

We end with  Death,

 

Tell me, where am I?

 

Where is the place I must be?

 

Why did it happen anyway?

 

He didn’t push a chair,

 

No,

 

He didn’t cut a rope either,

 

Clasping his deadly grasp around strain,

 

Do not mind answering, my Master,

 

Do you play ‘I am hard to get’?

 

It is the world of wolves I know,

 

The world of flowers of evil,

 

Has always been your world,

 

He has one human habit,

 

He has to boil snails,

 

They eat many small holes,

 

Destroying the bouquets of his green salad,

 

But I don’t understand,

 

Why are greens more important?

 

Than caring of loving chin height snails?

 

Is it what all gardeners love?

 

Why do greens come forever first?

 

Should I be jealous of his kale?

 

I wish I looked like cabbage!’

 

The snail was tucked,

 

Under   the blanket with the rattles,

 

The bed was tight but safe,

 

It was the place where it fell asleep,

 

It might not hear explanations,

 

Maybe the snail did not remember,

 

It might have   known them.

 

‘Ask shiny pebbles for directions’,

 

Was strolling in the dream,

 

‘I didn’t look for someone to sleep with,

 

I looked for someone to sleep in,

 

He looked a decent inn’,

 

This time I fall asleep in you, my dear,

 

Don’t ask me why,

 

It is the seventh step,

 

Don’t ask me why,

 

The answer and the answers,

 

I don’t know,

 

Love me and don’t say”.

 

 

 

Saturday, 9 March 2013

Incest. Another Love One Hundred Thirty Six.


Incest.

 

 

 

Another Love One Hundred Thirty Six.

 

 

Life’s bedside story to lullaby the Capricorn.“If you feel being inside somebody, you never flirt with other three”. “Look who is talking now? What is your favorite? Will it be ‘two’ or ‘three’?” “ The best things come always in twos. The world started from two made by God creatures. Adam and Eve were two. It is only the two of us watering one seed of the world in which you are the tallest beanstalk”.”No doubt and, of course, I do.  I drive a convertible. It equals two.  In your car there are three seats. So don’t distract my beans with the tallest, green stalk talking”.

 

 

 

“It was the marriage of convenience,

A comedy of manners and the truth,

A comedy of love intrigue was useless,

Since it exhausted everything we’d felt,

It seemed we both felt abused,

A gambling place must not have windows,

In order to succeed,

Cash cows were search engines,

Coughed up and crashed,

Like slot machines in the Las Vegas strip,

I drowned several years ago,

After I drowned one more time,

We did the thing,

It was too naked and untimely,

It started like a childish fun,

It cut like a shark fin,

I thought he wore the antivirus,

He thought that everyone who were before him did,

He’s not the first,

I wish he was the last rippling my ocean,

Raising the tides of screaming rips,

We both hate hysteria and quarrels,

It was the itch that we could scratch,

Like criminal we’re civilized,

Not stabbing former lovers,

We carried the same secret,

We had to leave without slamming doors,

Parting without bashing scenes,

Deceiving curious eyesight,

Nobody followed us,

I followed nobody,

It was a genius and faceless public place,

It didn’t leave much space for trust,

Seagulls and fish men sent me tweets,

Somebody wanted to make love,

To build a family together,

Somebody loved to post it,

Love is a quest,

It’s on the plasma screen,

It’s on the face of Earth,

It is high definition and relentless,

It makes us sharing a nest,

Until the fire is extinguished by routine,

Living together comes to its inevitable end,

Quest is a terrible hangover,

Despite of all it’s never ending,

It happened one December night or morning,

The choice depended on the right or left horizon,

Light had been looking at,

I was washed up on beaches catching garbage,

It was the time pain got uncorked,

I was one wave that hit the shore.

Seeking destruction of my quest”.