What does the cat purr in your ear?

 

  I returned to my God. Hunger brings me to you again  and again.

 

 

 ‘You’ve never asked me about the tunnel,

You never believed I would get so high’,

‘How it was in the cave?

Light and serene,

Was it death hole darkness?’

‘You haven’t changed a bit,

Sarcastic mood favors your way,

The hole-cave was very narrow,

Overcrowded with positive stuff,

It wasn’t the time to return,

But it was the time to move on,

It was difficult to get out,

Corroding the Universe,

Others keep coming behind,

God was the farthest,

Devil was near,

‘Don’t climb, don’t hurt, stay with me,

I’ll sing you a nursery rhyme,

Do you hear?

I sing it to all my children,

It’s about a little kind Eskimo,

‘One million years he had been trying,

To melt an icebound igloo,

The world saw the Coldest Pole,

The wise serpent spoke Hebrew’,

It’s a piece of the void,

It is nothing,

Don’t expect God to love you,

God doesn’t know how,

I will always belong to you’,

There was no room for being unfaithful,

Infidelity was his pray,

It happened to be unconscious,

I couldn’t do otherwise,

As if I had no choice,

You understand me,

You and I are the same,

Now I fall for blue haired angels,

Gazing at me with curly blond eyes,

 I have dinner with skinny saints,

Badly emaciated,

They pray and praise,

They are ever fasting,

They lock miracles in candy jars,

The sun was gone,

I deleted the sky,

Everything froze to death,

From here it’s one step to her,

Her majesty the guillotine,

She sells memories at retail,

She sells eyes to the highest bidders,

Trying to fall asleep,

I fiddle away daylight,

Counting scarred walls,

Feeling the prowling touch,

Of ratting rag pickers’ demeanor,

I am a leftover dish,

I am the leavings of feelings’,

‘We all are leftovers of love,

Why have you come?’

‘I have felt sick’,

‘Why have you come?’

‘You see I still feel?

Something has gone wrong,

Something you did isn’t right,

Why are you so endless?

Why am I so starving?’