What Does The Cat Purr In Your Ear?

 

 

LOL, namely Loss Of Love

 

 

 

I had been feeling dizzy,

My legs didn’t hold me up,

I had to run for help,

I fell,

I was trembling with fear,

My legs kept failing my mind,

There were many gapers around,

I was swaying from side to side,

Somebody grabbed my shoulder,

He looked me in the face and persistently asked,

‘Where is a child?

Try to remember,

Was a child with you in the car?’

I felt I was dying of horror,

A pair of scattered kids sandals,

I was not guilty,

No evidence was in my car,

They all looked like curious beetles,

I saw only approaching luminous spots,

I leaned forward,

Something happened to my vision,

I repeated ‘I didn’t see,

I didn’t see a child,

I know one truth,

I’m still here with her’,

I started to lose my eyesight,

I came around,

I was a bed bound patient,

Finally they let me choose,

I chose living like dying,

Over compassionate nurses,

Mercilessly fishing my damaged veins with their butterfly needles,

Over compassionate doctors prescribing buckets of wholesome junk,

My stumbling heart had chosen,

It always loved singing blues,

So many people cared and loved me,

I didn’t get why,

I was renowned for being infamous, abusive and heartless,

There was no space to house flowers, treats and speedy recovery cards,

The world seemed to forget my lows and highs,

I considered it being an ominous sign,

Mom visited me now and then,

For rebel standards it was very often,

She always brought dainties,

Her every lecture ended the same,

‘Stay with us just for a while’,

Breaking my lifelong tradition,

I switched from ‘no’ to ‘yes’,

That’s why her hopes were high,

But she always left empty-handed,

I had money and anything money could buy,

Except for edgy sensations,

Something like loss of love,

After I finally felt it, I wasted my life,

Trying to hit my highest highway,

This way we could be forever together,

At the hopeless end of the world,

There everything was frightful,

 There everything was cold.